Princess fairy tale

I m actually my fathers princes…….. he has always treated me as a princesss n so do i love him more than this life.

there is a song which i like most of the time n soo my momm sooo hate this song n says ” begar raha hai ye tm jesi  bigrewe hue Qum ko”

so i really dunt care jis ko jo sochna hai soch

urrrgggghhhhhh what is happening to meeee i m getting a typical girl  :@ two days back i have been listening to this song n thinking about Y girls are so possesive of getting married ?????????

actually i m from a memon family where girls get married as they pass their matriculation ( scratches my head) n sooo i m a dr………..

(tongues out) as if i do care

whatever back to the story part it is basically not my story but is apart of someone else

there is r girl of my age who use to think that one day a handsome person will come on white horse n will going to take her to the other part of the world

but eventually it wasnot like the way she had  thought of  he used to talk someone a a friend, guider, helper, someone to understand, someone to care for but nevertheless while talking she fell in love with him but that person used to love someone else n never treated her like that way he has always taken her as her friend but it was a silent love who was getting silent pain slowly n gardually

and she never told that person about her feelings but readily she develops an uncurable disease she never told him about her feelings after that disease even but inside she was dying n used to love him like anything in this world n used to talk to him everyday

but a third friend created a little misunderstanding in between them and the girl lost her friend, love n guide  n someone to console her

whi is wrong in between everything the girl who lost everything? that person is still happy with someone else n never ever even tried to ask her how she is even that person never ever tried to find out the reality in all misunderstanding

n to let u knw what the girls mother died a year back n she herself is a diagnose patient of cancer 😦

to share all this i really donot mean to tell the story but all i want to tell is that how lucky we are that Allah ta’la has given us such a life govern n guide by parents with alot many friends to care for u……… but stilllllll

after all this i really had understand the meaning of this life given to me…….

but inside i m feeling miserable that i cannot do anything for her ;(

but i have promised myself to give her all the happiness she deserves in this life

urrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh but ziada serious kr dya main ne is ko par i really want to do something…… anyhow……….

i m soo blessed to have my parents n meri fairy tale main srf mere parents hain jin se ziada mujhe koi azeez nhe aur jisse mere sath rehna hai usse mere parents ko bhe izzat dene hoge warna just go to hellllll

because all the males need  a female as thier better half u dont need u at all 🙂

so on a better note who ever want to have me in his life make your attitude alittle lesss 😀

n i love this song 🙂

Cricket maddness

People around me to tell u is  “k mujhe phr pagal pan ka dora utha hai ” 😛

i m soo hating this cricket world cup theses days ‘jisse dekho bus cricket ke bt krta hai ” as if there is nothing else is left in this world

coming to my point is hahahah well cricket is really fun these days…………. pata nhe q par jisse he out hota hai we sout like k hum khd  khel rhe hun 😛

this is just a random picture from a Google web i dunt know y this picture has fascinated me but this really shows cricket madness in every part of Pakistan………..

and if we loose this world cup it would be so disgraceful to Pakistan………..

and this image has been kept as my laptop desktop……….. i m so weird i hardly like cricket and alll but sill prays that k Pakistan will win this match n will bring the world cup from India to Pakistan 🙂

plzzz everyone pray that Pakistan wins the world cup this times PLzzzzz Allah ta’la PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz

to u !!!!!

the least think i want to tell u is

“i myself know that u can never be mine…… but u r always mine n i really dont want to lose u that way u were always there as my hope the moment when i feel alone, my anxiety which always relieves my doubt, my certainty during my unusual periods of faith and hinders me that someone is still with me who is worried for me who misses me when i m not there who is always beside me to guide me but…………… i knew that even before that v r just friend and willl always be friend if i m far apart………………….

 

Dear Diary

To

my sweet cute diary !

i really need u back ………….. whom i m going to share my words with n u since the day u have left me i m felling very low these days…………… n srsly i m unable to write poetry as wellll………. plzzzzzzzz i want u back 😦

 

fantasized world

I had myself created a world of fantasy around me………………..  s got so much

i dont knw what but i really want to see alot more things to alot more people

but i knw there is niether anybody who has got much tym to listen me nor does anybody is intrested in listening to me

so to some of the people who are randomly asking so many Questions but i m really  not in  a mood to answer there querries i already had a lot more of mine even………………………

coming to the topic i myself thinks that i lives in a free world but i m bounded by my four side to different allocations………………………..

i really want to include so many people on this post

To my dear parents :

my father is really freaking out at me these days because i m getting more aggressive these days………. i dont knw y he thinks so but i m not ………… n i dont even knw

my mother who is more worried for me because i myself dont talk much even these days i make my self busy in my some other works to keep myself busy n intact…………… i dunt knw why????????????

once i used to be free like a butterfly to spread the smile n colours…………… i m still the same……………

To all my frined :

i dunt knw why they are thinking sooo that i m not where i m……………. my friend Faiqa who is best friend in everyone’s eyes but she is not…………… but i m not saying u that u r wrong n it is not like i m avoiding or i m not listening to u but i reallly want some space of my own………….. i knw i m getting very harsh very aggressive but………….. i m really sorrrryyy

To u the person who no more exist in my life:

u………….  urself had made me to rely on u………….. to believe u………………. n made me feel ur existence everywhere around me……………… but knw u no more exists…………. the words u have spoken to me i dunt wether they were actually for me or to shrug me offff i really dunt knw………….. but i m hurt n i m soo hurt

to all the people who are tagged here are requested to leave me the way i m 

ohhhh yad aya  Miss Anum munaf plz bring that fake smile on your face again because there are so many people who wants to see u smiling

To wasif bhai i m soo naraz with u ek to ap ne apne doll se chupaya that u r having pain n aona khayal bhe nhe rakha ;(

oh!!!!!!!!!!!! shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kal to monday hai DR Abdullah wo to kal meri jan le lenge Allah Ta’la plzzzz  wo na ayen

n i forgot to tell u something yesterday i had a call from my elder brother n iw as hell shivering pata nhe QQQQ?  but i was soo hapy that he had called me for the first time……………

n i got a new friend her name is aisha she is so sweet n pllll Allah Ta’la un ke sare pareshian khtm kr dennnn plzzzzz plzzzzzzz

n plzzzzzzzzzz  Allah ta’la meri frined Zaini ke smile wapus ajaye n make her happy than anyother person in this world 🙂

n what else i m  forgetting to tell u

aur plllzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Allah Ta’la wasif bhai ko jaldi se thekk kar den 🙂

n today in the carnival n rida ke friend ke engagement  we had soo much fun aur last but not the least song of the day

dunt laugh at me

MAIN THODA  NHE BHT PAGAL HUN 😀

n in the carnival ther was a person who can burn the match stick with a stick n match box in his single hand …………..  n my sister did it 😛 anyways it was so damn easy 😀

urghhhh n guess what pore post likhne k bd i get to knw k internet dc hogaya hai :@ i hate this wireless broadband

n lastly i anum munaf the pagal mad girls song of the day

unlimited wierdnesss

Its just a random post.

LOoks  like i m sleepy…………..

but really not in a mood to sleeeppppp 😛 so weird i m but….. butttt…………. i have a long list of things to do……………..

can i have a chuti ( an offf) from the uni nut my Hitler Teacher unnecessarily made me the Class representative a hell pathetic job to do…………..

and guess what for that so over called bkwas ward i have to take a 20 mins drive helllllllllllllllllllllll :@

Plzzz Allah Ta’la kal Prof Hussain Mehdi ai he na

i m soooo tired of surgery ward but waiting for Friday to come for operation theater 🙂

and knw i m getting prone to a list of songs on that 20 mins drive n our (mahan) driver drives like he is driving an airplane 🙂 i dont know who has given him the license to drive……………

cant he drive like the scooby doo drives 😛 😀

and when i come from university (lo je aesa bhe hota hai kya) i m almost tired……………

n even more than that i m these days not even replying to my text msgs my friends are almost barking on me and last night i had forgotten where i had placed me cell phone n when i found i was having so many galiyon se bhare hue msgs form my colleagues n friends imagine

and its like my mom hates and scolds me when ever i sing songs and since morning i have been singing a single song for which i remeber the only two first lines .

long da lashkaa

re babytera jan se pyara re baby tera ……………

re baby tera ….. patyal ve

i have even fogotten the words of it 😛 nand since for 4 or 5 days i have been usng the words lo je aesa bhe hota hai kya

bye bye gotta go n will write a serious post sooo00000n love you all take care 🙂

someone

As this was the moment

as he had to go back

for not knowing a reason

i still sat in that position

in which u had left me

when u didnt came back

i m so alone n deserted

But, when i thought of the time

and the moments, we shared

A feeling crept over me

That i wasnt alone here

As, A part from my family

I had someone in life

someone who consoles me

When ever i cried,

listen to me in my bad times

But, that someone has left me

in the darkness of life

lost

No one can hear my cry

no one can see my tears

As i m walking in the rain

i am avoiding being noticed

no one can discriminate me

when i look back

i see my shadow that is full of ecatasy

when i look at myself , is my present

which is so insignificant

and when i look ahead

i see my future which is lost